Oh the humidity!

Yeah so it's still hot here, suprise suprise...and veeeeery humid. I think I've become a little more accustomed to hot weather since coming here...time was when intense heat for me meant recurrent headaches and constant lethargy...and that side of things hasn't been too bad so far. (Not to get too gross here, but) it's just the constant sweatiness I can't be doing with. Go outside, make the slightest effort towards exertion and...splat! you're drenched in your own juices. Yeah, maybe I should just change the subject.

So the course is...hmm. Recently I've been feeling like I don't know anything and can't learn anything. I have moments of lucidity, but they come and go, and the majority of the time my brain feels as though it is swamped in a quagmire (giggidy!) of half- or non-remembered words and grammar. Also, I think half of the problem is that I don't really know how to study very effectively by myself. And I do still want to learn, but...sometimes I feel the passion that I once had for the subject wane, which is kinda worrying.

So life often feels like a constant stream of uphill struggles right now. No money, no job prospects, no time, no intimacy, constant heat, numerous anxieties, a brain that doesn't want to/is unable to learn things...yeah. Still, gambatte-ne, Andy-san.

Sorry, needed to moan, I think.

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お盆休みはほとんどゆっくり休んでいました。　でも、きのう友達と名古屋へいきました。　ブラジリアのレストランで昼ごはんをたべたり、買い物をしたりしました。　それに、先週の金曜日豊橋へ先生仕事を知に行きました。　でも、ちょっとだめだったと思います。　私は先生じゃないと思います。

最近、生活はちょっと大変でした。　時々、勉強することが覚えられないし、授業やテストやしゅくだいでよく間違えるし、学校はよくむずかしくて私はばかみたいな感じがする（？）。　それに、いつも暑いし、お金がないし、さびしし。。。時々あきらめたいだな。